so, here’s the thing.
I am the type of person who’s self-esteem comes from people around me. and when I don’t have anyone close around, my self- esteem hits rock bottom. And when that happens, I go emo on myself. And I DO NOT like going emo on myself. it hurts. on the inside-out. well… here’s a story to keep you happy while I die in my self-pity….
I have a friend, A. usually, we get along A-OK. BUT! suddenlt… she stops talking to me. I confront her. she says I have to change. “Change what?” you ask? that’s the thing. I DON’T KNOW. I ask, she doesn’t tell. how am I supposed to change if I don’t know what to change? If I change the wrong things, A’ll still be annoyed. If I change everything about me, Then people who actually like me for who I am will leave me. Do I want that? NO. so what am I supposed to do?
I need advice.
as you can now tell, that was NOT a story from a fragment of my imagination but an actual happening and a plea for advice. PLEASE.
another thing. People tell me I’m rude. I am NOT. I’m just WAYYYYYYYYYYY too outspoken. and I KNOW i have to change it… but no-one wants to give me the moral support I need. the only people who’d give me that support I need are too busy and the other one is being “A” and my emo pal is siding her. I think I’m gonna cry thinking about this. so I think… I think… I’ll stop here.
-ash
one more thing, I have been made an official prefect.
feeling too emo for an evil laugh right now.
